I try to live a happy life, and generally I do succeed most days. I just keep pulling myself back into the present whenever I start thinking about the past and what could have been, or the future and what it holds. So far, staying grounded in the present has worked like a charm. I’m determined to be happy, so I am.
But every so often, something happens to make me slip up and let my guard down and sink to the level of the other person or the situation. And, damn it, I really, really hate when that happens. It means I’ve failed in suppressing my ego. It means I’ve allowed my ego to resurface and re-establish itself, albeit briefly, by reacting to that person’s words or actions. My ego just wanted to defend itself, to make its opinions heard.
I should have remained calm and non-reactive. I should not have let my mind start worrying about what might or might not be. I should not have let the situation trigger off unhappy memories, or stooped down to such low levels.
It’s not so much what a person said or did that bugs me, it’s the fact that I let myself down by reacting the way I did. Basically, by allowing my ego to surface like the shark in the movie Jaws, I was allowing myself to engage in conflict. The ego of the other person, and as my beloved icon Eckhart Tolle calls it, the “pain-body” of the other person, saw my ego and recognised its own kind. And hastened to destroy it. And, because my ego was now in control, I fought back claw and tooth, thus adding fuel to the fire.
Shame on me :-(.
So, now that I recognise the lesson and have learnt from the not-so-pleasant experience, I’m going to boost my memory by finding some quotes on Google Images that echo that. Reinforcing in my own mind how NOT to react the next time this situation occurs, what NOT to say, and how to rise above it and stay happy, damn it!! Just because you’re not happy with yourself, doesn’t mean I have to be unhappy too.
I wrote previously about staying Positive at times like these. Now here’s what you should do about the Negative people in your life.