Painting A Portrait With Words

By the above, I mean using the power of words to paint you a picture of me – what makes me tick, what I like, what interests me, my Life Philosophy.

Once again I’m using my favourite source, Pintetest, to find “fancy” words to describe my psyche. You can find these on Pinterest, under my handle AlyZen Moonshadow.

That’s me alright. Always learning new subjects and skills on my own. I believe in the “full immersion” technique for learning anything, and often my first port of call is Amazon for books on the subject. Where there are no resources to be had, whether in hard copy or online, I learn what I can and fill in the blanks later.

I like to stay positive and optimistic, but lately it’s kinda hard to…especially when the all-too-real possibility of becoming homeless rears its head. With no savings (having used it all up keeping the family afloat all last year while hoping for a miracle), no prospects of getting a “proper” job (apparently employers prefer to hire young ones because they can be “trained easily”…like monkeys), and no way of repaying my debts, and with any help from Social Security looking highly unlikely, and having exhausted all my efforts to get assistance from my own family, it’s looking like becoming destitude may be the only option awaiting me, my son, our 2 dogs and cat.

And yet, for some unknown reason, I still feel optimistic??? Yes, last week and the week before, I was feeling as low as low can be. But now I think, “Whatever”, and, like my dear friend and neighbour Diane said, “You have gotten as low as anyone can go, surely things are bound to get better, they can’t get any worse?”. Well, they can and they might get worse, because after all rock bottom has a basement, or rather, rock bottom has a whole multi-level underground carpark, as I’ve discovered. 

But…yeah,”Whatever”. C’est la vie. Donations most welcome via PayPal to alyzenmoonshadow@hotmail.com 😄😄😄

Well, I can’t deny that somewhere deep within me, is this person hoping for a last minute reprieve, hoping that some good news will appear unexpectedly, some miracle will occur, a deux ex machina finale. I guess that’s the eternal optimist in me talking. 

Either that, or I’ve completely lost the plot. Whatever. 

I guess if I do make it through this latest catastrophe in one piece, some day I’ll be able to look back on this bleak period and thank the Universe for the lessons I’ve learnt from it. I have so many ideas for creative ventures and running my own business…but Money talks, right. I can sympathise with the have-nots, because I’m experiencing first hand what it might feel like to not be able to achieve anything, just because I lack the $$$$$ needed. 

So, the question is – how does one get hold of money to do things with, when one has been denied such by financial institutions as well as family? The Lottery hasn’t yielded much, either. 

Lastly, this word fits me to a T. My bed is the comfiest place I know to read in. I like to if not read, at least flick through my books before bedtime. So here I am now, and I bid you all a Very Good Night.

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