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Hiatus

I’ve blogged every day for the nearly 4 years now, give or take a few glitches and accidental deletions. To date I’ve written around 1245 posts, and used countless of my own photos or photos curated from the Internet and Pinterest. There’s 8.1 GB of data on my WordPress account.

It’s time for my yearly WordPress Premium subscription to be renewed. It isn’t cheap, at AU $129 per year, but for the last few years I’ve managed somehow. 

Until now. I figured, all that data is just sitting there doing nothing. I’m basically paying for data storage. I’d like to print excerpts or the entirety of my blog into book form, as my memoirs for my son Jack to read when he’s older. 

So, after an online chat with a very savvy tech named Alvaro from WordPress, I’m downgrading my WordPress subscription from Premium to Personal ($53 per year). I’ll still get all the benefits of a Premium account, only I won’t get as much data storage, only 6 GB. Which is okay, as once I’ve migrated my older posts off to an archive for converting into a book, I’ll free up space so I can write again. 

And if I keep archiving my posts every year, I’ll have a nice Memoir out of them at the end of every year.

So, this is me saying “Au Revoir” for a while, taking a sabbatical, a hiatus from blogging. Don’t worry, it’s only while I springclean my blog and free up more space. 

I’ll be researching the best platform for converting my blog posts into book format. There are quite a few out there, and I’m sure I’ll find one that fits exactly what I’m looking for.

So don’t worry, folks. In the words of Arnold Schwarzenegger in the Terminator films,”I’ll be back”. Sooner than you think! 😉

I Can & I Will

I’m tired of people telling me what I can or cannot do. How to live, how Not to live. What do they know? They’re not me. How can they presume to know what’s best for me? 

Actually, I got tired of this a while back. But, having to live under the same roof as my ex, (for now, anyway), every now and then he likes to remind me of my limitations. Every now and then the ugly beast rears its head.

“You can’t do this”, “You don’t have the money to do that, so forget it”, “It’s not possible”, “I know it’s not going to work, so don’t even think about it”. Etc etc etc.

I know it’s just his own insecurities talking. He has to try and put me down in order to make himself feel better. He needs to put the blame on someone, and I happen to be the closest. He needs a scapegoat to pin all his personal problems on, wagging his finger at me like I’m the source of all his problems. 

But, you know what? You can’t tell me what I can or cannot do. None of you can. Everything is possible, if I put my mind to it. If I set my intention, and follow through on the clues and signals that The Universe throws in my path, there is no way I cannot succeed in achieving my goal.

This year, my goals are thus:

1. Increase my Finances abundantly, enough for me to buy my ex out of our home. He thinks we’re flogging a dead horse, that we’re throwing good money after bad. But I don’t agree with that kind of defeatist attitude or mentality. If we can keep up with the mortgage payments, until such a time as the property market improves and we can sell the house for a profit, then surely the bank will be happy enough to overlook the arrears and tack it to the back of the mortgage? The ex just wants to run away to live in the Philippines with his (married) girlfriend, that’s why he isn’t too bothered if we lose the house here.

2. Get a job or jobs that will give me financial security, from multiple streams of income, if that’s how it has to be. With that I’ll be able to clear my debts and get a home loan at a low rate, to buy our house (as above). But more impprtantly, I would like to start up my own Crafts business online – maybe on Spotify, or on Facebook or even through a Wix website. I know this is possible, and I’m working on it. I’m also researching the pros and cons of becoming a pet groomer…should I do a certified course in pet grooming? Is it something I want to do? Will I enjoy it? Will I be able to get a job doing it? 

3. Buy/win/be gifted a Mazda CX-3 car in Soul Red Crystal. I am in love with that colour, every time I see it on the roads now I get a little frisson of delight up my spine. I can envision myself sitting in the car, driving it, oh yes, please, and Thank You, Universe!

I Can & I Will, Watch Me!

(Images sourced from: Pinterest)

Land Of The Free…?

The “Scarcity” model that Society imposes upon us is one big fat lie. Society needs us to believe that there’s not enough Money out there for everyone, that the rich can only get richer and the poor poorer. That we are not beautiful enough as we are, so we need this makeup, these clothes, those shoes, that cream, go on that diet, eat this, don’t eat that, try this gym, buy this, buy that etc. 

It’s simply how Society operates. It needs us to do all that, in order to ensure its own survival. And the mode of exchange, the currency if you wish, is Money. 

It’s human nature that the more you’re told you can’t have something, the more you want it. Forbidden fruit tastes better, right 😉. The set-up therefore, or the carrot in front of the donkey, is to make something so attractive and desirable that you Just have to have it. And then make it seemingly unattainable, by pricing it out of the ballpark. 

But by then you want it so much, because mainstream Media has bombarded you with marketing campaigns, ads, teasers, freebies…your Want becomes your Need, and then you decide you can’t live without it, so you’re willing to get it at any price.

That’s when you start looking at credit cards, loans, payment plans, laybys etc. Your object of desire lies in the future, so you make yourself live in the future in order to obtain it, by going into debt. 

There are certain things you just can’t avoid paying for…like a roof over your head, for example. If you Rent, you’re essentially only borrowing your home from someone else, and could be turfed out if things go wrong. If you Buy, then the house is the carrot and you have to keep chasing it by paying regular instalments to the bank…because it’s actually the bank that owns the property, not you. Sure, you may pay it all off eventually, but again, that reality is in the future.

But do you know something? All that I’ve just said above – they’re First World problems. Here we are, squabbling over who gets the best bargain in town, which wine is the best, who the classiest celebrity is, where the best holiday deals are…when elsewhere in the world, people are dying of hunger and thirst, being exploited, being blown to pieces. 

And you don’t even hear about these things. Because the Media doesn’t want you to know. The Media in cahoots with Society just wants you to keep spending your Money. It helps Society control your thoughts, your spending habits, your very lives.

Yup, Society has it all sewn up alright. Nobody owns Mother Earth, yet people are not free to pitch their tents on any piece of earth they like and call it Home. Nope, somewhere along the line some smartarse or congregation of smartarses decided that the Land belongs to the Government and that everyone who wants a piece of it Must Pay. Look, they even steal Land from the original people who were there first, millennia ago. Original tribes who lived on and off the land, peaceably minding their own business, there’s plenty to go round, no need to squabble, spread out, go forth and multiply…until the Invaders arrived, that is. 

Whatever happened to “Land Of The Free”? First the Land was Free, then it wasn’t. First the People who lived on the Land were Free…then they weren’t. Ever heard of the word “Slavery”? 

“Free” has 2 notable connotations, both used in this context. The first – not having a pricetag, not for sale, available for use by everyone, having no monetary value of exchange. The second – not restricted in movement, not prevented from going about one’s daily business, not shackled in chains, not “owned” by someone else.

Land rights is just one specific example. There are too many examples of how Society has created slaves out of Humankind, by imposing manmade rules and regulations, and telling us “This is just the way it is”. Like some catch-all, cure-all phrase that’s supposed to mean something.

Luckily, many people are waking up and deciding to take the fight to the Capitol. We will be slaves no more, bowing at the altars of false gods. What was once Free MUST be Free again. One small victory at a time. 

(Image source: Pinterest)

In The Pink

Thought I’d be a girly girl today and go all pink. 

Just because I can.

This is going to be the year I turn my life around. This year I will reclaim my life, my way. No one will ever dictate to me again how to live, what to do, who to love. I will practise Positivity, Affirmations, Visualization, Gratitude and the Law of Attraction. 

Let’s start with my Divorce, which will be heard in Court in 2 weeks’ time. A very good place to start, for all endings are new beginnings. I am Woman, hear me roar.😊

(All images are from Pinterest)

Doorways

I was looking through Pinterest and came across this beautiful photo of an open doorway and the view beyond:

Doors and doorways are intriguing. A closed door symbolises much more than a slam-in-your-face kind of “No”; on a positive note, it holds the promise of better things, riches and wonders, new adventures. Doorways, with or without doors, tease us with tantalising glimpses of what lies beyond, if we only dare to cross the threshold.

(All images sourced from Pinterest)

Doorways invite us to step out, and metaphorically speaking, they invite us to step out of our comfort zone. To take that one small step that may turn into the greatest adventure you’ve ever known.

Doorways can be so inviting and alluring. Will you dally awhile where you are, admiring the vista ahead of you…or will you step over the threshold?

What wonders await you beyond this doorway? (This one is of Tintagel in England, the fabled birthplace of King Arthur. I’ve actually been to this very place, and it is every bit as magical as you see it). 

The view from a window can be equally awesome…but windows (unless they’re full-length French windows) are small and obscured by the wall they’re built into, which acts like a mental barrier curbing the imagination. Doorways lack that kind of inhibition.

Looking at all these doors and doorways, I can’t help but wonder if that which you are seeking is out there, seeking you in return? What is the view like from the other side, I wonder? 

Would you look back? 

Favourite Inspirational Thoughts

Just a few Pinterest curated inspirational thoughts for the day, to mull over and ponder. 

I’m still learning to trust that The Universe will provide for all my needs, and that I don’t have to worry about anything. Some days things go swimmingly well, other days I begin to doubt myself…but The Universe then shows its wicked sense of humour and starts throwing synchronicities and coincidences across my path, as if to say “Hey, you, why do you doubt me? Here I am, to remind you!” 

Just the other day, after our epic clear-out of my son Jack’s bedroom, Jack and I were cooling off in the swimming pool when he started talking about his pet peeve – the vacuum cleaner. Straight away my mind remembered a YouTube video of a man tying to start his vacuum cleaner by repeatedly pulling the electric cable, as if it were a lawn mower.

A couple of hours later, I received an email from a relative, with a video attached…of the exact same man with the vacuum cleaner.

And all those multiple numbers – 11:11, 1:11, 2:22…

Coincidence? Or a clear nudge from The Universe?

What I’ve Learned…

Having just completed 30 Days of Gratitude, which involved self-examination, looking inwards, identifying my own strengths and weaknesses and being courageous enough to tell them to the world, here are some things I’ve learned: 

(Image curated from Pinterest):

What you allow will continue. I’ve allowed various people, over the years, to dictate how I should behave, how I should live my life, what my beliefs should be, who my circle of friends should be. Well, no more. 

From now on I intend to live Life My way, for My Highest Good. The only person I have to please is myself. The only person who holds the key to my Happiness is myself. 

The Universe is on my side, The Universe has my back. I just have to focus on Appreciating with Gratitude all the Abundance that I already have, and I expect to attract More and More Abundance. My Life will be a Success on my own terms. 

I refuse to be dragged down anymore by anyone’s negativity, their pessimism, their efforts to drag me down to their level. Not my monkeys, not my circus. 

I will appreciate any positive aspects of a person’s character, and encourage them to be the best they can be. If they cannot be positive, or if they are spirit sappers, I will remove myself from their lives with grace. 

I will no longer entertain anymore negative talk, either by others or from myself. I intend to be the Best that I can be, and I will be the only judge of my success. 

30 Days of Gratitude : #29

#29: What friend/family member are you grateful for today?

I’d like to be able to name someone from my own family/relatives that I’m grateful for…but unfortunately I can’t, because I’ve been let down, frowned upon, rejected, neglected, ignored, looked down upon, denigrated, and generally treated as worthless by them. I’m too much of a renegade, rebel, non-conformist, bohemian, weirdo, square peg in a round hole, for their conservative tastes. They can’t understand why I can’t just conform to Society, work a 9-5 job like them, do the same things they do, and just live a “normal” life like them.

What they don’t understand is that what’s “normal” to them is anything but to me. I truly believe that one must do what one is passionate about, in order to be happy. Working for the sake of paying the bills or paying off loans, is NOT going to make anyone happy. Living a life designed by someone else, or ignoring what you’re passionate about, is NOT going to make you happy. And isn’t Happiness ultimately the aim of everyone on Earth?

The only person I know that truly “gets” me is my dear neighbour and friend, Diane. She’s a sprightly 76, a real social butterfly, has a wicked sense of humour, and loves shopping at thrift stores just like me. We get on like a house on fire. I drive her up the wall with my whacky ideas, and she likes to say “For F&*@’s sake, Annabelle!” But it’s all in fun. 

I dearly love Diane. She’s the Mother I never had, and she’s also my best friend and confidante. I drive her to the Library, we have coffee, sometimes we go to the shops and have lunch together, I drive her to the doctor’s or dentist’s, or to one of her social meetings or mah-jongg games. She has me over for coffee and cake and a good natter sometimes. I look after her house when she goes away. We look out for each other.

Diane is possibly my Guardian Angel, and I’m extremely grateful to have her. Thank you, Universe, for finding me the best friend a girl could ever have!

(Image source: Pinterest)

30 Days of Gratitude : #24

#24: What challenge are you grateful for?

I’m grateful for this challenge called Life. Some people appear to have all the luck – being born into rich, affluent or influential families, having the right connections, moving in the right circles, going to the best private schools, money is no objection, etc etc. Their entire lives are mapped out for them, from cradle to grave. They grow up, go to work, get married, buy a house, have kids, pay their bills, retire and die.

How boring. 

My life is nothing like that described above. There is no road mapped out for me to just follow til the end. In fact, there is No road to speak of. Well, if there was, it’s covered over by desert sand and has tumbleweeds rolling across it. 

I’m sure I’m not the only one wandering around, there must be a few million others in the same position as me, only we each have our own journeys and destinations, and no two are identical. Chances of me meeting anyone on this path are miniscule indeed. 

But, no matter. In fact, remember the saying, “Not all who wander are lost?” We just appear to be lost, because our private journeys are so vastly different from Society’s preconceptions, so strange and quixotic and erratic. But in actual fact, we have aims and intentions just like other people, only our trajectory is more Brownian than predestined by Society or our parents. We do not conform, we are the bohemians, the dreamers, the artists, the Life Changers.

Either that, or we’re aliens 😄.

(Google Images. Poem is “Ode” by Arthur O’Shaughnessy)

30 Days of Gratitude: #21

#21: What song are you most grateful for?

My Life being as it is, I guess the song that resonates most with me is Gloria Gaynor’s 1978 hit “I Will Survive“.

The song is about feelings after a relationship breakup, but it also stands for a lot of other things. For me, it stands for my survival after being betrayed by the people I thought loved me, and how I’m constantly picking up the pieces after each betrayal. For others, “I Will Survive” is the Gay Anthem, or a motivational song to inspire the downtrodden, suppressed, minority, the troubled, those feeling down and out. It’s a song about strength and carrying on and moving forward after setbacks.

So yeah, I’m grateful every time I hear this song. 

The lyrics of “I Will Survive”: (from Google)

“I Will Survive”

At first I was afraid, I was petrified,
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong,
And I grew strong, and I learned how to get along.

And so you’re back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second you’d be back to bother me

Go on now, go. Walk out the door
Just turn around now ’cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble?
Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I!
I will survive.
Oh, as long as I know how to love I know I’ll stay alive.
I’ve got all my life to live.
I’ve got all my love to give.
And I’ll survive,
I will survive, hey, hey.

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart.
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent, oh, so many nights just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high.

And you see me somebody new.
I’m not that chained-up little person still in love with you.
And so you felt like dropping in,
And just expect me to be free.
And now I’m saving all my loving for someone who’s loving me.

[2x]
Go on now, go. Walk out the door.
Just turn around now ’cause you’re not welcome anymore.
Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble?
Did you think I’d lay down and die?
Oh, no, not I!
I will survive.
Oh, as long as I know how to love I know I’ll stay alive.
I’ve got all my life to live.
I’ve got all my love to give.
And I’ll survive,
I will survive.